Am in a dangerous mood today. From lack of sleep due to hunger and abdominal pain. Need to talk really carefully. Better not to talk at all. Stress management and self-empowerment skills are too complicated to be exercised when light-headed and oily-skinned after bus trip on a blindingly sunny morning. Hope that will get news from erhu teacher soon. Thinking about erhu evoked my mood last night, in which everything and everybody was beautiful and am a capable, young, fresh and innocent person. Which is kinda opposite to what's going on now. Dangerously close, anyway. Must believe that erhu teacher will reply. Am going to finish whatever i've started. Am going to clear up messes and fill up holes. Am writing like Bridget Jones. Another result of a morning like this: danger of potential regret is great.